Challenging 2017.....

It has been a long time since I last post any update here, is a challenging year for me and my family. My eldest son was sick since Feb 2017, he was amittied in hospital due to serious purging n vomitig where it took him 2 weeks to heal.

During the 2 weeks he was admitted twice in hospital. After that was heal the nightmare started. He started to have headache everyday where he can't go to school, and we admitted him to hospital for checkup again. His headache was 24 hour consistent and it get worst everyday. Where he slowly was unable to walk due to headache, unable to wake up early in the morning. Where doctor was mentioning about virus attack due to his liver condition was no good. Things get worst everyday he become over sensitive with touch on his body. If we touch his body he will feel pain, there are time where he cried loud at night saying whole body pain, seat down also pain, stand up also pain. Many times we are thinking of giving him steroid treatment but the virus was still unfound.....

I have been running both hospital wards and aikido class most of the time, and I'm very thankful that my students are there to help me taking care of my class whenever I had urgent issue. 8 time adimitted into hospital, all kind of virus blood test done, 4 brain MRI, 2 E.G. Done, with only medicine for migrain to be taken. 6 different hospital visited more then 20 specialist and doc seen. My life was a mess but aikido training n teaching help me to stay strong. Thou I had time where I'm on the way to break down, my wife, family and students is there for me also.

I can say is a mental training of my aikido inner deep instead of my hand on techquice. When I teaches small kids in aikido class I feel so sad when I see my son having problem of illness. Where I need to drive from my workplace back home during lunch time to wake him up, support him standing , feed him food or water where it will took him about 40 min to 1 hour where he will get back to normal and started walking. Been able to walk for few hours a day for him is a wonderful gift for us that time.

Every week we need to visit min 2 different doc both western n eastern medicine hand in hand. Lucky his condition improved where we are able to wake him up everyday early morning n his physical condition improved. Yet a new story started 😊 After weekly discussion with doc we pick up new knowledge weekly. We are still monitoring his body condition always but we found out he has this in born psychology behavior hidden inside him where this illness trigger it. Which we found it hard to control his emotion and behavior.

His 4 MRI was sent to kl hospital n the doc there was wonderful, the doc
gather his whole department and even sent my son MRI to US specialist where both country doc mentioning his brain was normal but his headache was real. Which will cause him body weakness and emotion swing..... we where refer to UMMC hospital after discussion etc we try our best to bring him back to school. New nightmare comes where is impossible to bring him to school on July 2017, but we need to dress him up almost everyday. I need to carry a 50kg young boy almost everyday from ground floor to level 4..... in his sleeping condition, but he manage to attend class for few hours slowly, of cause in between there are many small stories such as lost of memory for few days, escaping from school, fighting with me outside class for not wanting to go school etc, Aikido teaches us to fall and get up as a uke where my life story with my son is always up and down everyday. Constant believe in fate and training bring it into our life. My son was classified as a school refusal or we can say school phobia in medicial term.  Not many old people understand what is the meaning of it. Is part of a psychology issue for kids and teenagers.

Yet another things we learn in Aikido is to feel n follow the flow, we decided to change to a private school for him, where is a christian church school taking ICCA cert. During the decision of changing school for him is a night mare for me, most of the family members doesn't really support my decision n I had some small understanding between my family and my wife. Now his will always have mood swing or meltdown where we always need to bring him for psychology clinic for counselling, giving him OT etc. He is also classified as an Asperger kid where most family members don't agree with it but only me.

I'm suppose to be taking my 4th dan this year, but after so many issue happening, everyday is a challenging and thankful day for me where I think my mental test is already way above my hand on technique. My son will always once awhile mood swing where we need to learn to teach him, refuse to go school once awhile where both me and my wife need to try our best to encourage him. Is challenging but we know we are not the only one having family problem.

Thankful for the mindfulness training in Aikido that always make us strong, I don't know how long I can still hang on but I will always try my best as a father, a husband, an aikido instructor.......

Goodbye 2016 and Welcome 2017

It has been a wonderful 2016 for us, Thou we do not set up any new dojos and do much marketing to let people aware of us in 2016, yet we still manage to maintain Hibana Bushidoo well, at least we manage to go for Aikido Seminar in Singapore, manage to have few dan grade promoted. Many small small things happen yet is a good learning for us and everyone here :)

Here are some photos that i manage to arrange here for the whole 2016 and edit in a clip in Youtube, many many more not added in, but is ok cause is always in our memories. From Chinese New Year blessing for students, to grading, to self defense class, to Aikido seminar, to birthday celebration etc....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NjKwdjBnCew&t=3s